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"I hope that chicken sandwich keeps you warm in hell!" was the last thing I said before I died.Disconnected. That's the only way to describe it. It was like there was a cable plugging me into life, then something came by and just knocked it loose -- the metaphorical dog got excited at something walking past the metaphorical window, like a metaphorical cat, I guess, and ran in front of the TV -- and that was it. The thin silver cord connecting me to the living world was knocked out of its port.
And I metaphorically swore at that metaphorical dog, for it had cost me my last metaphorical guy, and metaphorical MegaMan is really fucking metaphorically hard.And life did not auto-pause: The game continued, but the player was not present. As I floated up from my body,
That's a lot of words to say "really white," dude."It's OK," a familiar voice spoke to me, "you're safe here.""Who are you?" I asked, though I knew I had no voice to speak the words."I'm that guy
"They just look bi, man. Sometimes you can tell, you know?""Wait," I said, desperately trying to seize onto something, though I had no limbs to do so, "don't I get to relive the best parts of my life here first?""You don't even remember half of it! Most of your memories fall firmly into the 'morning after' category. Do you really want to relive throwing up candlewax into a sombrero for six hours?""No! But for the record, I'm pretty sure I won that bet. Come on! At least teach me some great truth about the cosmos before you send me back!" My distress became manifest, and I somehow managed to claw into the meat of the sparkling non-flesh around me. Something with a voice like the sound between notes squealed; I was pretty sure I'd seized onto some soul-ass. "OK, sure, whatever. The secret to making love last is independence and indifference, infused with affection and generosity." The voice answered, each syllable like harmonic vibrations in a set of train tracks that ran straight and unbroken to infinity. Then it kicked me in the face with a foot of pure glory, and I spiraled back downward into the muffled dusk.***My first living breath was ragged with spit and disuse. My eyes refused to focus. A blinding light, figures, splotches of vague coloring resolving and dissolving with every heartbeat.
I instantly decided to hate the one on the left and bone the one on the right."What is this? Heaven?" I rasped. "Are you guys angels? If you're angels, you have to tell me. This is entrapment!""No," a dark splash of blue spoke. "This is St. Augustine Hospital, and I'm afraid you've been in an accident. I believe you may have experienced something called an NDE.""Yeah, you know me!" I reached my hand up into the nebulous shape for a high five, or however many a nebulous shape has."I'm sorry ... you?""Know me, yes." My hand still hung."Know what?""Who's down with it.""Down with what?""OPP." Still nothing."I don't under-""You know who's down with it.""Who's down with what, OPP?""Every last Home-ey!" I took initiative and slapped at what I hoped was the area's hand or hand-analogue. I swung through it, hit metal. Something crashed to the floor."I'm afraid there may have been some brain damage," the shape said to a thinner, whitish blotch."What's up, baby?" I said to the blotch. The blotch did not reply, either because it was a stuck up bitch, or possibly a drinking fountain.
She either thinks she's better than me, or will give me herpes if I drink from her. Probably both."I'm going to sedate him," the blotch answered the nebulous shape, and then stabbed me with something."I'll cut you back," I mumbled, fading. "Nobody punks me! Noboooo ..."***When I awoke again, a patient-looking doctor was smiling down at me benignly. "Good to see you're up," he said, when I finally stopped swinging at his stupid face. "Still some loss of impulse and emotional control," he said to the nurse, as an aside."No, that's normal," I gently assured him."I'm sure you have a lot of questions," he began. "So, please, feel free.""Just one: What's your fucking problem?" "I'm ... sorry?""You should be! I had a death grip on what I think was angel-junk, and I was totally going to crash the shit out of that heaven-party. Then you soul-blocked me! Motherfucker!"
SOULBLOCKED."This is-""Aren't you worried about time paradoxes?""I don't think I follo-""I only ask because you just
Pictured: Love, in its purest form."And there were holy, or somehow sacred beings-""Kinda fratty, actually, but yeah, I guess they
"More like resERECTed, amirite fellow undead?!""Actually, bin Laden's already been killed ...""Boss! NDEs represent!" I formed a pistol with my hands and leveled it at the nurse. No, that didn't feel right, not a pistol ..."No, I didn't mean ..." The doctor sighed and pinched the bridge of his nose. He removed his glasses, cleaned them and replaced them before continuing. "I worry you may still be addled by your experience. Perhaps we should resume another day.""No, no, I'm good. I'm professionally addled. It's cool. You go on, homey. Get your spiritual pedant on, I won't judge.""Well, the goal of our program is first and foremost to record cerebral activity when full cardiac arrests sets in. At the next stage, yes, we also have a series of noninvasive tests set up to gauge the accuracy of the experience, but I assure you, it is not unpleasant in any way for the patient. We do not seek to 'hassle' the dead and dying. Next, we take a thorough survey of all NDE survivors, and record their stories in order to build a proper census of the phenomena. We've already
Basically this."Fucking sign me up! I ain't afraid of no ghosts!" I tried to bolt upright in bed, but caught on the IV. The drip pole rattled, tipped, stabilized."Well, I uh ... I do actually have a sign-up form here. I was going to ask if you were interested, but your enthusiasm, it seems somehow ... wrong.""Wait, I'm supposed to be disturbed by this? All I have to do is get in a terrible accident and then, when I wake up, tell people I saw a tunnel and heard my grandma, and you give me an all-you-can-eat buffet of free acid and Special-K. Sounds like a sweet deal to me! Would it make you feel better if I was showing more signs of psychological distress?""Yes, yes I suppose it would," the doctor folded his arms and sat defiantly.In one fluid motion I withdrew my IV and plunged it deep into the nurse's bosom. She screeched and flapped about the room for a moment, the wheeled metal stand pursuing her like an excited dog, and then she was out into the hallway, and gone."I ain't forget!" I hollered after her, "I ain't never forget! WESTSIDE. WESTSIIIYEEEDE."The doctor was leaning comically backward in his chair, his face twisted in fear."I don't even know why I said that," I laughed to him. "I'm over on the northeast, myself. Just doesn't have the same ring, you know?"A nearly imperceptible rattle sounded from his throat in response."No, hey: Me and you? We're cool, buddy. You're my hook-up!" I reassured him, standing wobbly-legged on my shaking hospital bed and holding my fist aloft. "Now let's get fucking wrecked and play
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