This is a story about tragedy, loss, and the unbearable pain that inevitably comes with both.
... is how I would start this column if I was a millennial hipster. Here's a more accurate version: this is an article about the strange ways smartphones -- or rather, taking them away -- affect your life, inspired by the story of a dumbass who spent a few months without a cellphone and, thanks to a series of increasingly ridiculous mishaps, learned a number of unexpected life lessons. The story is true, the dumbass is me, and here's how shit went down:
5You Are Powerless to Fix It
A couple of months ago, I posted this Facebook update:
Although there is probably some anger-induced hyperbole there, it's basically how things went: one day, I came to notice that my phone had gone all Skynet on me. The touchscreen refused to respond to any of my commands, instead following orders seemingly typed in by invisible ghost wizards who were determined to fuck my shit up as much as they could. Invisible hands were all over my social media and attempting to randomly call people whose phone numbers I thought I had erased years ago. Had this been a computer, I might have been able to fix it myself. But a phone? No chance in hell.
Before you write me off as even more of a dork than it will shortly become evident that I am: yes, I attempted to shut the thing down, but since the power button only takes you to a "Shut Down Y/N" menu, that was useless. I'm also aware phones generally have some manual fail-safe shutdown system, but good luck Googling that shit when your phone keeps thinking it's a way better idea to ignore you in favor of loading Moneygrab Fiend XIII off Google Play -- especially as you're currently trudging through a cold November rain that contains far less awesome guitar solos than Guns N' Roses would have you believe. So, I had no other option than to seek shelter and desperately flail at my Pazuzu-infested gadget until it graciously entered flight mode and rendered itself relatively harmless. Through it all, I handled myself pretty gracefully, if I say so myself.
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This is what "graceful" means, right?
Eventually, the battery died down, which solved Problem One. Unfortunately, Problem Two immediately arose, as my slightly less-than-pedantic bookkeeping system had swallowed the phone's warranty papers. I decided to put things off until tomorrow, borrow an older, smaller spare phone from my dad, and get on with my life until I would eventually get around to getting Demon Phone fixed.
And then, not a day later, I dropped and broke the fucking spare phone.
4Your Phone Becomes a Severed Ghost Limb That You Can Still Feel
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During the first week of my life without a portable Internet device, what I found out was this:
Hi, my name is Pauli, and I am a smartphone addict.
That's a joke, by the way. I don't want to throw around terms such as "addict" lightly, because science is still trying to figure out whether mobile phone overuse counts as addictive -- and if life has taught me anything, it's that I'm always, always precisely 2 percent less smart than science. Still, during the following week or so, I soon deduced that if I had to bet on this particular fight, I would put my entire paycheck to the "fuck yeah, it's addictive" camp.
Removing constant Internet access almost immediately reduced me into a fidgeting, twitchy mess, to an extent I haven't experienced since I quit smoking. I would constantly reach for my phone just to "check my email real quick," which, of course, we all know is slang for "Imgur and TV Tropes until the battery dies." Then, realizing for the 19th time that all I had left was an old and battered Nokia 3210, I hastily switched brain gears, mentally hissed at anyone within a 20-foot radius, and skulked back into the deep, dark corner of my mind where I just wanted to browse, goddammit. It was like amputees feeling an unscratchable itch that hovers in the empty space where their elbow had once occupied. It was maddening.
You're probably wondering why I didn't just buy a new phone or fix the broken one, like a regular person. The problem was that this also marked the start of an extremely busy period in my life -- think 17-hour workdays, way too many airports, a looming Christmas, and all that jazz. After initially failing to locate the warranty papers, I kept pushing the task later and later because I was just flat-out too exhausted to search for them and too miserly to buy a new phone because I was certain the old one could be fixed. I had been provided the ingredients of a perfectly fine shit soup, and I was apparently more than prepared to stew.