I've had a lot of different jobs in my life, with various kinds of medical insurance (if I was lucky enough to have a job that even offered me that). So every time I got new insurance or just started seeing a new doctor, I had to start the whole process of getting ADHD treatment over again. Go over my diagnosis, fight insurance on medication brand and potency, plead my case on why they should pay for it, bare-knuckle fist-fight the pharmacist, etc.
And if you get through that entire process and somehow lose your whole bottle, sucks to be you, because trying to get new meds when it's not time to renew your prescription makes you look like a drug addict and will get you cut the fuck off. Once, due to a typo on a prescription, a pharmacy refused to give me my meds until they got confirmation back from the insurance company, and the back and forth on that literally took two weeks. To put that in perspective, I could've watched every episode of Gravity Falls 21 times before I got those pills.
I'm currently not on any meds. I've decided the hassle and risks outweighed the benefits, and Adderall is the only thing that has ever worked for me. Recently I've been wondering if I should give it another shot, and by "another shot" I mean track down alllllll of my medical records and original diagnosis paperwork (have I mentioned I've moved around a lot, too?) and give it to my current doctor, have her refer me to a psychiatrist covered by my insurance (if there is one), have the psychiatrist agree to write me a new prescription, and beg my insurance company to agree with the prescription brand and dosage strength, which will have the meds actually in my hands in as soon as ... a month? At the earliest?
"You'll Grow Out Of It!"
ADHD happens because, basically, your brain's frontal lobes keep taking sick days. They're in charge of stuff like organization, problem-solving, and motivation, and when you have ADHD, you're forced to rely on stuff like therapy and medication to be their personal trainers. And the older you get, the harder it is for your brain to adapt to all of the things that you're trying to do to wake it up. You're screaming "WE HAVE AN APPOINTMENT AT EVERY TIME O'CLOCK," but your brain remains in bed, begging for just five more minutes.
People who were diagnosed as adults have also spent their whole lives knowing that certain basic things were inexplicably harder for them than other people, and the only explanation available (especially if they were Type 2) was that they were lazy and slow. My parents were immigrants who had no idea that this disorder existed, and I grew up in the type of neighborhood where nobody even thought to bring it to their attention. Saying "Well, that kid just sucks" is way easier than sitting parents down for a full-scale diagnosis.
To everyone around me, I was a confusing kid, what with my high school reading level in elementary school and my inability to remember my way home from said school despite the fact that I went the same way every day. So when you're written off as lazy, you internalize it a lot and figure that you need to work twice as hard as everyone else and drink nine times as much coffee.
This is no doubt one of the reasons that you so rarely hear about adults seeking treatment for ADHD. If you've been deemed an idiot your whole life, it seems easier to just go with that flow rather than ask a doctor what the hell is wrong with you.
That is really the point of all this. People argued for years that we were over-diagnosing our kids with ADHD, but I'm betting that we're not diagnosing ADHD adults enough. If any of this sounds like you, ask your doctor. A bunch of things in your past might start making a whole lot more sense.
For more on adult ADHD, check out The Mindfulness Prescription For Adult ADHD.
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