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One year ago, almost to the day, I quit smoking. Three months after that, I started back up. As I type these words, nine months after that, I'm trying again, wrapping up my first full day of quitting. And, like last time, it is all I can do to stop myself from punching everyone in their softest body parts.__new_line__

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__new_line__But as I sit here feeling like Nazi Facemelt from Raiders of the Lost Ark, I realize that there are some things that this first, torturous day of quitting can teach a man about life ...

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You Can't Expect People to Know What You're Going Through

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Being fired from your job. Coming out of the closet. Giving up anything that people consider trivial, like video games or pornography. Only being able to satisfy eight of the 11 women currently in your bed. __new_line__

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Ever heard someone in an office announce that they've quit smoking? Or maybe you've done it yourself. It's always met with some polite cheers and a "Good for you, buddy." From an outside, non-addicted eye, that seems like a perfectly normal response, right? It's deserving of praise, but what the hell else can a person say about it? The most they can do is give their version of "I agree with this decision" and get back to pretending they're not playing Minecraft on company time.

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So within seconds of your announcement, the world goes back to normal, and you're left feeling a little shorted. This is a big fucking deal, guys. But what we tend to forget while we're waiting for someone to start our celebratory parade is that 72 percent of the U.S. doesn't smoke, and not all of the ones who do have tried to quit. To the rest, your decision to quit smoking is on par with their decision to give up chocolate -- they don't realize you feel like weasels have gnawed on your muscles and then shit in your brain.

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Yes, they know what withdrawal is -- we've all been in high school health classes. We've had to attend those boring, mandatory anti-drug rallies. We've all been forced to sit in our underwear and hum Stone Temple Pilots guitar solos while the guidance counselor shot heroin into his eye. But they "know" about withdrawal in the same way that I "know" about pregnancy. That's why I can always pick out the addicts based on their sympathetic response to somebody quitting -- it's like you had just told them that you were donating both of your kidneys to a homeless stranger ("Oh ... wow. Really? Man. Well, good luck"). Forget the polite congratulations; these guys have walked through the pulsating underbelly of hell that you're about to travel. And they know that you will only find hate there.

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Why Remembering is Vital:

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When you make a change like this -- whether it's smoking, or trying to lose 50 pounds, or changing knife-fighting styles -- your whole world stops for a while. You want the rest of the world to stop with you. After all, when it's a bad habit you're trying to quit, you're used to people giving you shit. Every time we take a smoke break, it's "You know that stuff will kill you. When are you going to quit that nasty habit?" So when we finally do decide to take the plunge, we're expecting a little bit more than an acknowledging nod. It doesn't have to be a blowjob in the middle of a Broadway production. Just something that was at least on par with the enthusiasm they put into their annoying reminders about how unhealthy it is to inhale poison.

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__new_line__That's when you realize that, for the most part, you are on your own. That's hard to take when the nicotine starts to disappear from our systems and everything in the entire world becomes an excuse to smoke again ("I'm getting too angry. I need to smoke to take the edge off. It's for everyone's benefit, not just my own." Or, "Quick, give me a smoke! My nipples are throbbing!"). Anything to get that chemical back into the bloodstream.

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It's those moments of self-pity when the weak-willed say, "Fuck this. If they don't care, then neither do I." And they're right back to smoking as quickly as it takes them to walk to the nearest gas station. You have to lower those expectations, especially when you're trying to cure a bad habit. It's not like building a house or getting a huge tattoo of a winged dick on your back, where you have something to proudly show off later. You're just trying to get back to zero, and people who have never been in negative territory won't get it. And neither do you, when the roles are reversed.__new_line__

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Your Body Lies to You

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Hunger pangs less than an hour after you've eaten. Stress-related stomach cramps before a big job interview. When you've realized that when the time came, you didn't have to dodge bullets.

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Monday night I stepped outside and smoked my last cigarette. Five minutes after I finished, I started feeling the effects of withdrawal: achy muscles, anxiety, shaky hands, panic. Five minutes. While the nicotine from my last smoke was still fresh in my system.__new_line__

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__new_line__And it wasn't just an anxiety attack, it was the same exact physical withdrawal I had felt many times before. My brain knew I had made the decision to quit, and in response, it started hitting me with mock withdrawal symptoms before I was being physically deprived of the drug. When it comes to addiction, your brain can be kind of an asshole.

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About 10 hours into my first smoke-free day, my legs and knees were killing me. It wasn't unexpected -- one of my biggest problems with past attempts was physical pain in my legs. But it wasn't until this time around that I realized this most likely had very little to do with nicotine withdrawal and everything to do with the fact that I sit in a computer chair for 16 hours a day.

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It turns out that your brain can play all kinds of tricks on you like that. It's the control center for your entire body, after all. If it feels like flipping the "your balls are being dipped in acid" switch, there's not much you can do to stop it. Even if you're a woman.

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__new_line__We tend to trust our body and the physical signals it sends. You need to constantly remind yourself that everything your body sends you, from hunger to exhaustion to anxiety, can turn out to be completely manufactured bullshit. __new_line__

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__new_line__Remember walking on the train tracks when you were a kid? Playing that game to see who could walk on the rail the longest without falling off? With enough practice, you could even jump from rail to rail without touching the rocks in the middle, right? Now, imagine taking those same tracks and raising them up 1,000 feet into the air. Would you still be able to balance yourself and jump between them?

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Everything about what you're physically doing is exactly the same. Your feet haven't changed size. The rails are the same distance apart as they were back on the ground. But because they're now up so high in the air, your mind (rightfully) adds in the element of danger, and suddenly, walking on those rails becomes impossible to anyone with a healthy, normal fear of heights. The activity hasn't changed -- your mind has.

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__new_line__If you can keep that in mind and catch your brain fucking with you, it's a whole lot easier to head it off at the pass and backhand that shit like a 1940s actress. This is why they say that a large part of addiction recovery should involve counseling. Not only are you retraining your mind to wipe out years of repetition and automated response, but you're also teaching it to stop throwing tantrums like a fucking toddler (i.e. giving you symptoms when there actually are none -- "mental withdrawal"). If left unchecked, the mind can keep doing this for quite some time -- my last relapse happened after three months of not touching a single cigarette. Note: In the interest of being fair, I was still on the patch at the time.

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__new_line__And let me stop here and remind everybody: This isn't an "If you do these things, you'll succeed at quitting smoking!" article. I've never succeeded in quitting smoking, so anything I say to that effect would be total bullshit speculation. What I can tell you, though, is that all my laps around this track have given me a really good view of where the potholes are.

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Your Memory Will Change With Your Mood

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When you're halfway through a project and realize that it's too much of a pain in the ass to finish. Going back to a bad relationship. Breaking a diet. Continuing to watch Adam Sandler movies, hoping they'll be like those dirty CDs he put out 15 years ago.

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Let me tell you about something that actually happened to me 10 or so years ago. I was making an attempt to quit drinking because of all the reasons that make sense. Mostly the fact that it was killing me. I told my friends that I had finally had enough, and that this was it. I spread the word like I had just discovered the Lord.

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Two weeks later, I got a big tax check, and I immediately bought a case of beer. When my best friend found out, he asked me why I went back to drinking. I told him, "Well, I can afford it now. The problem before was that we never had the money for beer, so every time I bought some, I was putting us further and further into the hole, financially." I remember being taken by total surprise when he asked, "Wait, when the hell did it become about money? That wasn't even an issue when you first told me you were quitting. So when did it go from not being an issue at all to being the sole reason that you quit?"

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I wasn't lying -- my brain had retroactively rewritten history, changing the terms of the deal so that I would have permission to break it. I quit drinking because it was becoming a major health issue ... but the second I came into some money, I modified the original reason for quitting to "We couldn't afford it." It worked, because now that we had the extra money, I could start drinking again. See how fucked up an addict's mind is? Here's what's worse: We all do it -- although none of us do it consciously. Ever broken up with a guy or girl because they were fucking insane, only to find yourself calling them a month later? "Why, I don't even remember why we broke up!" (Hint: It's because he shaved your mother's name into his pubic hair.) __new_line____new_line__

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This one's pretty obvious, right? I mean, do I really have to spell this one out?

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Actually, to a person addicted to nicotine, yes. Those modifications will come up constantly, and if you're not able to spot them and expose them for the bullshit lies that they are, you will be back to smoking just as fast as I was. Probably telling your disappointed friend something completely fucking stupid like "Well, now that the stray cat is back in the neighborhood, I'm not spending nearly as much on mouse traps and bait. So I can justify the expense. Plus, mice hate secondhand smoke, so it's helping our environment."

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Remembering exactly why you quit is so important that most help programs tell you to keep a card with the reason written on it and carry that shit at all times. That way, you can't con your way out of your progress. When you start to have cravings, just pull that fucker out and read it. If it's fresh in your mind, it's that much harder to modify when your brain starts to freak out.

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Everything is Temporary, Even if It Doesn't Feel Like It

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First-week soreness of getting in shape. Heartbreak of being dumped. Depression. That fucking LMFAO song.

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Quitting smoking fucking hurts. The pain is bad enough that it's actually the number one reason people give for not quitting (70 to 90 percent).

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I'm going to be honest here, I can't say I blame them. It's one thing to experience a little pain, knowing that it's going to ease up in a few minutes. But the type you feel from nicotine withdrawal lasts for hours at a time. It gets to the point that everything you do is in response to it or in an attempt to prevent it. It rules you, and you have to be one tough motherfucker to get through it.

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Where it really starts to fuck with your head, though, is when you get legitimate pain that has nothing at all to do with quitting smoking. Since you're already feeling the effects of withdrawal, your mind just lumps it all together, and suddenly your perfectly common stomachache is attributed to nicotine deprivation and not the six boxes of Valentine's Day candy you just gang-ate.

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If this were actually true -- that this constant pain is your new existence -- it actually seems pretty rational to say, "No. Fuck this. I'd rather die of cancer in 25 years than spend the next 50 living with this pain." That sounds reasonable to us when we're in the throes of withdrawal.

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However, that whole "being in pain for hours at a time" claim I made earlier? It turns out that it only seems like that long because when you're in the middle of an episode, your perception of time gets all fucked up. Some people call it "time distortion" because they're most likely sci-fi fans, and they don't think that people want to punch them when they say that phrase. Regardless of that, they're right. The average nicotine fit only lasts three to five minutes, and knowing that makes it a whole lot easier to just grit our teeth and fight through it. It gives us hope and, at the very least, a finish line to shoot for.

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The solution to that distortion that turns minutes into hours? Carry a clock.

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It doesn't have to be that, obviously. Your cellphone would work just fine. It not only helps keep you grounded when things start going to shit, but it lets you know that you're almost through the worst of it. That little bit of information can mean the difference between getting through the hardest part of detoxing and just giving up completely. And again, apply it however you want -- if you diet long enough, your stomach shrinks and your hunger pangs quiet down. Restrain your fist, and your urge to punch motherfuckers eventually passes.__new_line____new_line__

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__new_line__Your body will say, "This lasts forever, so you might as well give in!" But it's a lie, maybe the biggest lie your body will tell you. But the only way to find that out is to push through it. One way or another.__new_line__

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Controlling Your Moods is Your Responsibility

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Had a huge argument with your spouse/parents before work. Financial stress. Did I mention that fucking LMFAO song? Doesn't matter, I'm saying it again: That fucking LMFAO song.

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The Problem:

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Right now, as you fight your way through your first day without a cigarette, there is an entire world of people out there who have no idea that you exist. They don't know your name, your problems, your goals and dreams. To many of the people you'll encounter today, you are just a face behind a windshield on the way to work. Another humanesque form, handing the cashier a pile of metal circles in exchange for a cup of hot black liquid.

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Nicotine withdrawal, however, has a tendency to make us stick out from the crowd by turning us into aggressive, inconsiderate assholes. Our actions can, in seconds, reduce someone else's day to a pile of smoldering ashes, and we can't let that happen. Yes, the pain makes it easy to slip into those moods and just unleash it on the poor woman who accidentally shorted us a quarter when handing back our change. But it's up to us to recognize that it's about to happen and stop ourselves before flying into a rage and calling the woman a dumb cunt.

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Sometimes the dam just breaks, and before we even understand what's happening, we're yelling at some mortified server about their restaurant's conspiracy to skimp on mashed potatoes. Even though we know for a goddamn fact that the next thing we order is going to be seasoned with urine. So we stop ourselves and come clean. "Oh, man, I'm so sorry. I just quit smoking this morning -- I'm not normally like this."

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The server will smile and tell you politely that he understands -- then head back toward the kitchen and whip out his cock.

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Why Remembering is Vital:

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__new_line__Society does not owe you the courtesy of walking on eggshells while you detox.

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For your own mental safety, you cannot let yourself get used to people adjusting their actions to soothe your irritability. That's how egomaniacs are born. If everyone you know is appeasing your bullshit, you come to expect it, even after the withdrawal-related mood swings are long gone. __new_line__

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Sooner or later, we have to realize that some of the anger that is coming out of us isn't completely tied to nicotine. And regardless of that anger's source, it has to be dealt with in a way that doesn't involve a relapse back into that slow, painful suicide. This is something that has to be confronted on an emotional level, and if you don't have the capacity to tackle that on your own (most people do not), it's a good idea to see about tracking down a counselor. Or at the very least, a friend who's willing to put up with your stupid shit until you get past this.

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Remembering that the rest of society is not required to help you through your recovery keeps the most important message fresh in your mind: This is your fight, not theirs. And that will go for every struggle or bad mood or physical sickness you'll have to muddle through for the rest of your life. Because once that rough spot passes, there'll be another one behind it. Figure out how not to be a dick due to circumstances. Because pretty soon you'll figure out that there are always circumstances.__new_line____new_line__

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For more Cheese, check out 9 YouTube Videos That Prove Anyone Can Get Sober and 7 Things You Don't Realize About Addiction (Until You Quit).

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